Tuesday, October 14, 2008

On to another cycle...

Well, my period started yesterday. Sorry I haven't blogged about it until now. Yesterday was a very, very hard day. I really had gotten my hopes up more this month than I have in previous months. I called the doctor and the latest they could get me in was Wednesday. That would mean I would have had to go home 4 days early (today). I talked to the nurse and she said that maybe it was a good idea to enjoy the vacation and try to de-stress a little bit and just skip treatment this month. So, my options were either to have no help TTC this month or go back home to Statesville very early. Of course, I would love to see my husband, but I also am enjoying being with my family. After many tears and much discussion with my husband yesterday, we decided that it would be good for us to sit a month out. Last month was really stressful, so maybe this is just what we need. SO, the plan is for us to meet at the Alabama game on Saturday and I will go back with him then. OH, on top of all that, this is my 2nd cycle with a combination of metformin, clomid & an hcg shot. The first cycle worked great, but this cycle did not work! The nurse told me that when I called yesterday. I just can't believe it! Why would it not work the 2nd time? Why did I get pregnant on my own 2 times and miscarry and now I can't even get pregnant again? This all just doesn't make any sense!!! So, the next time I do go in, she will be upping my dose of clomid again. I think that means that I will be taking 150mg now. We'll just have to see how it goes. But, for now, David and I will try to enjoy this month without trying to perfectly time everything and being told exactly when to "have fun" with each other. That will be a relief. I am praying that it will not be on our minds much this month. That's a hard feat, but I know the Lord can help make this happen. Thanks for listening! Today definitely was a better day, but I am still emotional. I suppose that is to be expected since it is "that time of the month". I hope you all are having a great day in the Lord!