A Little Disappointed

I will say that today was a little disappointing. I just got back from the RE. She did an ultrasound on Wednesday and today to see if my follicles had matured like they were supposed to to release an egg. Neither Wednesday nor today were they where they were supposed to be. Last month I had a follicle mature like it was supposed to and everything happened right (except for the actual conception part) and this month, the same treatment seems to not have worked. Obviously, they have faith that it is going to mature like it is supposed to because they went ahead and gave me the HcG shot to make the egg release. I don't know. If I were to get pg this month, I would find out while I am visiting my family without David. The other thing about that is if my period comes while I am there instead, I will have to cut my trip home short to come back and have an ultrasound to check for cysts so I can start the clomid again. Anyway, it is just crazy and there are so many unknowns involved in my trip, but I am looking forward to seeing my family and hoping and praying I don't have to come back early!!!

OUCH!!!

I got back from my doctor appointment a little while ago. I had THE most PAINFUL ultrasound I have ever had! The nurse said it was because there are so many follicles in my ovaries right now. She said she wasn't surprised that it was hurting and asked me if I had been having pains in my ovaries even before I came in. I had been having pains and wondering what they were. Now, I know! Anyway, none of the follicles were mature enough for "harvesting", so I have to go back in on Friday for another ultrasound. Needless to say, I was disappointed. The clomid worked so well this last cycle that I really thought it would work even better this cycle. It's not that it's not working, it is just taking more time. The nurse said it's normal for some people to have to come back 2-3 times before the follicle(s) is/are fully mature. So, I will update on Friday when we will find out if my follicles have matured. (It is so weird saying stuff like this. ;) )

A Not So Happy Anniversary

Today marks the 2 year anniversary of the first positive pregnancy test David and I ever got. I miscarried that baby and another one in June 2007. A friend I grew up with is now dealing with the same emotions I had to deal with and I am reminded of how hard it was when I miscarried. My husband would try to encourage me. People would say things like, "God will never give you more than you can handle." I knew that in my head, but I couldn't fathom how He was going to get me through that. Now, after so much time has passed, I see how God has brought me through all of this. Sure, I still hurt and cry at times, but He has shown me that He will, can and did get me through a very tough time! Our journey is not over yet, as those that read this blog well know, but I know that my God will get me through all of this. Even if I never bear a child of my own, I know that God is faithful and He will give me the strength to get through that. Now, I can't even fathom that I could get through that. That is way beyond anything I can conceive, but that's what God's word promises and I must rest on that!

Here we go again...

I went back to the doctor on Monday. I did have a cyst on my right ovary, but it was healing so everything was ok to go ahead and start the clomid again. I started the clomid that night so here we go on this next cycle. My next appt. is Wednesday, Sept. 24th. They will be checking to see if my follicles have matured. It will be pretty much the same thing as this last cycle so you can see the process a few blogs back. Be praying for us in this journey! Our new motto concering all of this is:

It is for OUR good and HIS glory!!!!

Back to the doctor

If you haven't noticed the ticker yet, it's official. My period started today. I will call the doctor on Monday to go in for another ultrasound. I will update once the appointment happens.