Last night I read a wonderful birth story of a sweet little baby. It brought me to tears more than once. It made me rethink how I live my life as a Mom. I want to be the best Mom possible to my sweet, little Caroline. She is a GIFT from my heavenly Father, chosen just for me! What an amazing thought - she was chosen just for me! So, it got me thinking about my day to day life with her. Most days, I get caught in the monotony of every day life. I worry too much about always having the house clean that I sometimes forget to enjoy the little moments with Caroline. I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS! I want to find the joy in every situation, even if that is when she is so fussy because of one reason or another. I want to make every day as special as possible and be constantly making memories with Caroline. Don't get me wrong, I also know that I can't completely neglect my responsibilities at home, but I do want to try to live every moment with joy with my sweet, baby girl!
Because of all these emotions I felt last night, I burst into tears and talked to David about how I was feeling about all of this. He, of course, was very encouraging. I told him I REALLY wanted to go into Caroline's room, scoop her out of her bed and just hold her! Just holding her is something I rarely get to do anymore and something I miss immensely! Taking Caroline out of her bed while she is sleeping is something I have never, ever done, but I really needed that time with her. David encouraged me to do just that because he knew how important it was to how I was feeling.
So, I quietly snuck into her room and scooped her out of her bed. We got settled into our nice, wonderful rocker and I just stared at her and stared some more. Shortly after she settled into my arms for our time together, a big smile came across her face. Wow! I can't describe how that moment made me feel. I love being her Mommy! I love that my heavenly Father chose ME to be her mother!
I am going to be doing my best to enjoy EVERY moment with my sweet Caroline! I know life is going to get in the way. That's just the way it is, but I am going to do my best to not let it disrupt my joy!
Here is a sweet picture from the days when I got to hold Caroline a lot more.
On a side note, this past week has been a MAJOR milestone week for Caroline. She has started talking so much more, saying Momma and Dada and na-na. The best thing is that we can tell she is associating Momma and Dada with us and not just making sounds all the time. It is SO much fun! I love hearing her saying my name because she wants her Momma!
Also, last Saturday night (4/10), while I was breastfeeding Caroline before bedtime, I reached into her mouth to discover her FIRST TOOTH! It is on the bottom. Yesterday, I felt her second tooth on its way in right beside the first one. My little girl is getting so big!!!
Caroline has also started crawling up a storm! For a while now, she has been scooching all around, but not really crawling. Well, on Tuesday, (4/13), David told me he came up to the living room where his parents were playing with Caroline and she crawled to him! I came up later, once I was ready for the day and she crawled halfway across the living room to me! I just can't believe that my little baby is 8 months old, is talking, crawling and has her first teeth! Where has the time gone????????
Also, I am still trying to catch up on Caroline's weekly posts. I was doing well for a while there, but the last couple of weeks I haven't been able to do anything. I am hoping to catch up soon!
