On to another cycle...

Well, my period started yesterday. Sorry I haven't blogged about it until now. Yesterday was a very, very hard day. I really had gotten my hopes up more this month than I have in previous months. I called the doctor and the latest they could get me in was Wednesday. That would mean I would have had to go home 4 days early (today). I talked to the nurse and she said that maybe it was a good idea to enjoy the vacation and try to de-stress a little bit and just skip treatment this month. So, my options were either to have no help TTC this month or go back home to Statesville very early. Of course, I would love to see my husband, but I also am enjoying being with my family. After many tears and much discussion with my husband yesterday, we decided that it would be good for us to sit a month out. Last month was really stressful, so maybe this is just what we need. SO, the plan is for us to meet at the Alabama game on Saturday and I will go back with him then. OH, on top of all that, this is my 2nd cycle with a combination of metformin, clomid & an hcg shot. The first cycle worked great, but this cycle did not work! The nurse told me that when I called yesterday. I just can't believe it! Why would it not work the 2nd time? Why did I get pregnant on my own 2 times and miscarry and now I can't even get pregnant again? This all just doesn't make any sense!!! So, the next time I do go in, she will be upping my dose of clomid again. I think that means that I will be taking 150mg now. We'll just have to see how it goes. But, for now, David and I will try to enjoy this month without trying to perfectly time everything and being told exactly when to "have fun" with each other. That will be a relief. I am praying that it will not be on our minds much this month. That's a hard feat, but I know the Lord can help make this happen. Thanks for listening! Today definitely was a better day, but I am still emotional. I suppose that is to be expected since it is "that time of the month". I hope you all are having a great day in the Lord!

Bye Bye Beach :(

Well, we just got home from the beach in Gulf Shores, AL. It was sooooooooooo good to be back down there! I really loved it! My family has a timeshare. We used to go all the time when we were little so it holds some good memories! I didn't realize how much I missed the beach and getting in the waves! The trip was really good. We went to the Shrimp Festival a couple of days and spent some time in the gulf and the pool and on the deck. What fun! I just had such a great time, can't you tell? On the way home today, we went to the outlet mall in Foley to go shopping! Woohoo! We had a great time and came home with alot of loot! David even got some stuff that he will have to see later. ;) I will say that the worst part was waking up last night feeling so sick I was about to throw up. I did and after that, I was ok the rest of the night. I have no idea why I got so sick, but I am glad to be feeling better now. I don't feel great, but I feel ten times better than I did last night. Sorry for the aside, but blogs include the good and the bad, right? So, here are some pictures from our trip (none from last night, of course ;) ). I hope you enjoy!

Mr. David, Mrs. Katrina(2nd parents to me ;) ), me, my mom, my dad on the beach the first night for sunset.

Me and my Mommy (Diane)!

The sunset on the first night. Isn't it beautiful???

My mom, me and my dad.

Isn't this a good picture that my dad took of the moon?

My brother-in-law, James; my sister, Carrie; me and my dad, Curtis

Having fun in the pool!

"Sisters, Sisters, there were never such devoted sisters!" I love her and am so glad I got to spend this time with her!

Daddy and his girls!

Me and my Daddy. I am a remake of him.

The whole Emigh family minus my David, of course :(

The whole gang that went down to the beach. (Shhhh, don't tell the people we had more than 6 people in the condo!)

For those of you that know my sis and I, you know how different we have always been. As we have gotten older, we have gotten more alike. This night we had both decided to order the same thing without each other knowing so we ended up sharing. We even both ordered Sprites! It was fun and a great memory! I am so glad we get along so much better now!

This is me walking along the beach the last night we were there. I am on the phone with David. I wish he was there in person!

Travel

I'M HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What can I say? I am excited to be home! The last time I was home was Christmas. I am sitting here at the computer checking e-mails, bloglines and facebook among others with my little doggie, Precious, sitting beside me. It's like old times! I miss family and I even miss Mobile. Can you believe that? Miss Mobile? Well, I do. I love it here! (Except for the temperatures of course.) If I could take that away, it would be perfect! We are going to the beach on Wednesday. I brought my camera and the cord to connect it to the computer, so, hopefully I will be able to share some pictures of the beach. It is always so beautiful!

A Little Disappointed

I will say that today was a little disappointing. I just got back from the RE. She did an ultrasound on Wednesday and today to see if my follicles had matured like they were supposed to to release an egg. Neither Wednesday nor today were they where they were supposed to be. Last month I had a follicle mature like it was supposed to and everything happened right (except for the actual conception part) and this month, the same treatment seems to not have worked. Obviously, they have faith that it is going to mature like it is supposed to because they went ahead and gave me the HcG shot to make the egg release. I don't know. If I were to get pg this month, I would find out while I am visiting my family without David. The other thing about that is if my period comes while I am there instead, I will have to cut my trip home short to come back and have an ultrasound to check for cysts so I can start the clomid again. Anyway, it is just crazy and there are so many unknowns involved in my trip, but I am looking forward to seeing my family and hoping and praying I don't have to come back early!!!

OUCH!!!

I got back from my doctor appointment a little while ago. I had THE most PAINFUL ultrasound I have ever had! The nurse said it was because there are so many follicles in my ovaries right now. She said she wasn't surprised that it was hurting and asked me if I had been having pains in my ovaries even before I came in. I had been having pains and wondering what they were. Now, I know! Anyway, none of the follicles were mature enough for "harvesting", so I have to go back in on Friday for another ultrasound. Needless to say, I was disappointed. The clomid worked so well this last cycle that I really thought it would work even better this cycle. It's not that it's not working, it is just taking more time. The nurse said it's normal for some people to have to come back 2-3 times before the follicle(s) is/are fully mature. So, I will update on Friday when we will find out if my follicles have matured. (It is so weird saying stuff like this. ;) )

A Not So Happy Anniversary

Today marks the 2 year anniversary of the first positive pregnancy test David and I ever got. I miscarried that baby and another one in June 2007. A friend I grew up with is now dealing with the same emotions I had to deal with and I am reminded of how hard it was when I miscarried. My husband would try to encourage me. People would say things like, "God will never give you more than you can handle." I knew that in my head, but I couldn't fathom how He was going to get me through that. Now, after so much time has passed, I see how God has brought me through all of this. Sure, I still hurt and cry at times, but He has shown me that He will, can and did get me through a very tough time! Our journey is not over yet, as those that read this blog well know, but I know that my God will get me through all of this. Even if I never bear a child of my own, I know that God is faithful and He will give me the strength to get through that. Now, I can't even fathom that I could get through that. That is way beyond anything I can conceive, but that's what God's word promises and I must rest on that!

Here we go again...

I went back to the doctor on Monday. I did have a cyst on my right ovary, but it was healing so everything was ok to go ahead and start the clomid again. I started the clomid that night so here we go on this next cycle. My next appt. is Wednesday, Sept. 24th. They will be checking to see if my follicles have matured. It will be pretty much the same thing as this last cycle so you can see the process a few blogs back. Be praying for us in this journey! Our new motto concering all of this is:

It is for OUR good and HIS glory!!!!